Monday, March 30, 2009

``_____.*How dumb can i be?.#

well, had lunch wif boss talked a lot about my work...omg..i'm starting to feel even more stress on me..my responsibility seems too much for me to take...but...i know i have to learn to carry this on me, because, i am determine to do this good.
g3rl never says die`! i won't give up on this, i won't quit`! i won't walk out just like that`!
i just need to do it right`!

after work went to douby ghaut to makan and then went home le..damn..i don't know what i was thinking nahs, i stupid stupid step into the wrong LRT..WTF`! suddenly i feel like a kid who needs adult to take care of me..omg-ness`!!

11:21 PM Z

Sunday, March 29, 2009

``_____.*=((.#

i wish...
i wish...
i wish i do not know anything...

5:15 PM Z

Saturday, March 28, 2009

``_____.*there's a limit to my patience..#

stop pushing me cans...i really cannot take it anymore nohs...stop throwing everything at me...this is so irritating...i should have simply shut the fcuk up, no point talking to people who opinion i do not have respect for at all`!

By all means, go ahead and be dumb`!

Like i've said, everyone's the same... it's all fake`! thanks for acting like u care`! there i am, trying not to say nasty things, trying to just forget things and carry on with this god damn life, people just cannot seem to leave me alone. all they have to do, is just shut the fcuk-up and stop all their nonsense`!

i'm going crazy nahs`!

i seriously seriously need a change...im not gonna continue doing those things i've did. i have to practice that self control...and i cannot not lose it. it's for my own good. Because i want`! so i can`! i don't wanna become that somemone i've always been afraid of...

not your subsitute`!

today is seriously so not my day...i slept like a log. and when i woke up, my breakfast cum lunch sucks, so i bearly had enough to eat...so i went to bathe Jo...

and after bathing her, i was blowing her dry when Ah Chow wanted to come into my room...guess what...how great. my door knob spoil`! my door cannot open`! ARGHS`!
so in the end. i got no choice, but to dismentle the whole door knob. i do not have a screwdriver with me in my room, i mean after all, who would leave a screw driver in their room`? maybe some guys do. but, i don't think i will never need it...UNTIL NOW`!!! that i desperately need it`! i open the window facing the service balcony and ask Ah Chow to throw it in. luckily it landed on my sofa...not on the floor or anywhere else...

so...i dismentle the whole door knob...and now, my room door cannot close...(-_-ll) can lend me ur room one`? =D

10:30 PM Z

Friday, March 27, 2009

``_____.*silience is golden.#

Stop telling me those things cans...i doesn't show me that you're happy at all...it simply shows me how lack of love and how insecure you're feeling...

hehes, lets see, today...hmm...during lunch time, i saw one of my classmate from CE, she grab my hand, i was like, huh...simi huh`? *machiam AH GONG liddat sia...(-_-ll)* lols. then i kept staring at her...trying to recall who is this girl la...hahas. in the end, i regconize her hors`! but guess what, i forgot her name..=\

anyways, today went quite smoothly...i still got some time to like slack slack a bit nahs...lols...after work went straight home, boss fetch me home, so nice of him, lols, i don't have to squeeze train with people today...phew...

10:02 PM Z

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

``_____.*dou shi pian ren de....#

everyone is the same...
all bluff me de`!
>.<

can you just shut up and stop telling me things`? can't you see i'm already being so sarcastic to you and yet you're still thick skin enough to come tell me blah blah blah...ARGHS`!!!

okkaes, fine, since you wanna play, i'll play along with you...
scare you cannot play nia...
bring it on`!

it's always only about you you and more you...what about me`? =((

work has been very busy...lots of stuff to work on...oh, come to think of it. i need to do my own time plan...which...arghs`! i hate planning...i'm always sui ji ying bian de...=(( now i nid to plan my own time-plan...sobx...zhen me ban`? plan le...later also luan dee...cause i will never follow...is always say shuang dee...=(( arhs`!!! jiu ming arhs`! okkaes...stop here le...lets go plan now...lols.

11:17 PM Z

``_____.*is it you, me or we?.#

should not have raised my voice...what was i thinking man...why did i even speak w/o using brains...suddenly i feel like *someone i know*...omg-ness, hw can i be like her...anyway, she's history...

why did i lose myself`?
what had happened to me`?
i should have been more patience and explain...like i can ever find the words ehh...
my same old theory...if someone trust you, they won't question you...they question, when they have doubts about you...

有些事不是你所看到的样子
do i always have to make myself so clear?
why must keep pushing me?
why put me in such a difficult position?
It's so difficult to communicate...everyone's all over the place...

i was right to change from v. loud to...i don't know what have become of me either...

4:28 PM Z

Monday, March 23, 2009

``_____.*K Session`!!.#

yippys`! had K Session today again`!! weee`!!!

hahas, i just never seem to get enough`! lol.

met Piku and Tehni, omg-ness`! it's been a long time since i last saw D.K, well, miss them lots...i'm so glad that things never change...cause this is the way i want things to be...even though it's been a long time since we last met, i need things to remain the same despite our busy schedule...

hmm, gotta start planning certain things already...sigh...so much to do...arghs`!!

1:00 AM Z

Sunday, March 22, 2009

``_____.*=((.#

hmm...so sians...did calling to clients just now...some clients are sssooo gggrrr...
well...man u don't seem to be on form recently...lost in 2 games already...
zZz...so bored...zZz...

12:20 AM Z

Saturday, March 21, 2009

``_____.*i don't feel good....#

sigh...why is it like that`? why have things gone this way...i never meant to give the wrong signal...but, i guess obviously...people thought i think that way or have the same feelings...i choose to believe it's fake...

i always thought that when we love someone, we will not demand for that someone to love us in return...i believe this is not the first time i'm blogging about this thing...but people just do not seem to get it...because they expect you to love them in return...and there they are saying that they respect your decision and blah blah blah...but...that's only a verbal thing...because deep down inside...they actually expect from you...

and...if people like to think that way. so be it. i will not be bothered...to me, so long as i know it deep in my heart...why do i have to always make things to clear? i mean, isn't it obvious? why some people purposely need me to make things ugly and put themselves in such a embarass situation then only they're willing to shut the fcuk up? ask once never mind, ask twice also never mind, ask more than thrice...ehh, this person seriously have got an issue...they ask and ask again, because the answer i gave is not what they want to hear...that's why they keep asking hoping i will give the answer that they want...

okkaes...great...now, i'm feeling butterflies in my stomach`!!! and the feeling sucks`! i feel like vomiting`! zZz...

12:27 AM Z

Thursday, March 19, 2009

``_____.*wtf....#

well...i just realise that going home from work is also like a battle...WTF. I just do not understand why these people stand in front of the train door like tua pek gong nohs...there are so much space inside and they just choose to stand right infront of the door. Machiam scare later cannot get out of the train like that...of cause la...with people like them who don't want to move of cause cannot go out la`! dumb`! see`! people who thought what other people will do are actually the ones who are doing it themselves`! that's why they're afraid`! ARGHS`!! MOVE IN LA`!

11:41 PM Z

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

``_____.*some thing are just ment to be.#

have been very busy with work...i still have got lots to learn.

okkaes, there i go again...don't know where to find the words to blog liaos...
i think these few days, everyone took the wrong medicine...everyone's so weird (-_-ll)
ehh...can someone please tell me what's going on`?

Bugs Bunny"ehh...wassup doc`?"

11:05 PM Z

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

``_____.*so near yet so far.#

i still feel very confuse...can someone tell me what is it`? it's the feeling i have never had..or say i have never felt of for a very long time...

seem to be losing it...

11:47 PM Z

Monday, March 16, 2009

``_____.*=S.#

huh`?

getting confuse...

don't make me luan...

i feel so scare...

11:20 PM Z

Sunday, March 15, 2009

``_____.*i will get use to it`?.#

am i kidding myself or what`? do i really wanna get use to this`?
ARGHS`! i'm gonna spend the rest of my days working...so i won't feel what i'm feeling now`! damn`!

everyone's the same...

11:04 PM Z

``_____.*back to square 1.#

sigh...it's satuday and i'm home all day sticking to the TV...for what`? i do not know...i just don't feel right doing anything...watched soccer just now, wtf, ManU and Liverpool, 1-4 with Liverpool winning...

and here i am with nothing else to do other than emo-ing as usual.

sigh...lets go watch Shinchan bahs...

12:10 AM Z

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

``_____.*some people just do not get it..#

well...yaas, some people just do not get what i mean. arghs`!!!

11:00 PM Z

Monday, March 09, 2009

``_____.*it's so cold~~brr~~.#

woahs...was early for work today, =D, had quite a heavy breakfast, so skipped lunch...but was damn hungry on the way home, so when i tap out from the LRT, i regretted not stopping by Compass Point or Rivervale mall to get my dinner, cause my mindset was like, okkaes, go jogging and then go buy dinner, but, since it was raining meows, woofs and roars, i just came home and think about what to makan, just then Meow MSN me, say he craving for satay...so we went all the way to ECP, so he can eat his satay, lols...anyways, it was damn cold la...cannot tahan...bbbrrr`!!!

10:47 PM Z

``_____.*again`! again`! again`!.#

hahas, went for K session again`!! YUPS`!
had fun, i was like singing all they way through`!! NO ONE CAN SNATCH MY MIC`!!! ARGHS`!! hahas, well, cos the rest are not fans of K la...so i sang the most. =D

after that went to eat Steamboat at Paradiz Centre. not bad nehs. the service is superb`! but, don't have feedback form for me to write...so i never write. =D

after that we went to play pool, oops...aku 1 game, play for 1hr. =\ so xia suay...lols...work at PF for 2yrs, cue also don't know how to hold properly...WTF...=\

12:30 AM Z

Friday, March 06, 2009

``_____.*oooohooo`!!!.#

i should have been blogging like i don't know how many days ago, but, well, now that i am going to blog...i forgot what i did or what i am suppose to blog liaos...lols...

so lets back track starting from yesterday...was late for work, cause i forgot to bring my pencil case`! damn`! so i went back to take. Almost had an accident...phew`! i don't want to die looking that ugly alright...work was like kinda sians, doing the same thing, having to call and like demand for things...but not forgetting at the same time, i really did learn quite a lot...

and after work, i went to White Sands to eat the manhattan fish...not bad nehs...least i think it'sbetter than Fish and Co.

i'm not saying that Fish and Co. is not nice, but i'm saying that the mahatten fish is better you see. yaas...and after that took the bus home and just when i was about to reach the TPE, phone ring...zZz...ah gal called to ask where i am, so i told him i'm on my way home from Pasir Ris, wtf nohs, kena say again...say why i don't know how to call him fetch...dots...

and when i reach home, he's downstairs waiting for me le...zZZ...never even give me chance to bathe or get change...zZz...so i just went up and get change jiu go out le...never bathe, so smelly...lols...went out for a while and went to pack food at Sembawang for mummy and daddy. reached home at about 12, so i quickly rush to bathe and took daddy's car off le...

went Geylang and makan beancurd at Yu Tiao Wang...the yu tiao is so oily...zZz...eat till v. full...reached home so late...just boon down and sleep le...ROARS`!!

wahs siao la, this few days keep raining meows, woofs and roars...cannot do anything, go home nia, jiu feel like sleeping. arghs`!

1:37 PM Z

Monday, March 02, 2009

``_____.*KTV`!.#

hip hip hooray`!!!

hahas, friday night was suppose to go out with viviana they all to watch movie de, but then in the end, it was like cancelled, cause eveyone was like unsure...

so in the end, i went to K with baobei. hehes, v. long never go K le...
sang till about 4 jiu go home le...damn tired nahs, then early in the morn some moron woke me up...like wtf cans...then i went to jog for a lil while cause the sun was scorching bright so i quickly run home, people who know me well will know how much i do not like to be under the sun...lols...

so after that i got home to bathe and got changed, headed down to orchard loot to walk walk. catch a movie and then to pubbing.

slept god damn late and woke up god damn early today. ROARS`!! got changed and went down to Bugis to meet Jess and Youyang for our K session again...hehes. was like already out of voice nohs...anyways, yupx, i had fun`! i just love k`! after that went to simpang bedok to makan, i had fish and chip`! hahas, so it was like, after so much i have run, i like put them all back...=\
hahas, budden never mind, cause when i got home, i rest a while and then go down to take a stroll before starting with my jog...see, i burn them all again`!!! wakakas`!!!

12:30 AM Z